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So oh happy.I woke up this morning feeling a little 'bit nervous. I tried to picture out myself seeing my name in the list and it felt good for me. The moment i thought about how it would all end up, hopeful in my case, I was having wishful thinking. I was letting all these things go for just this one leap of faith.. I tried to remember carefully how my dreams would come true in one second, how my agony and pain would stop and cease to haunt me before i go to sleep. And yes, those positive thoughts encircling in my head was giving a certain kind of trust within myself because I had always wanted to have it..


At exactly 1:30 in the afternoon, i was having this rapid beat in my heart.. my sweating hands were covered with my handkerchief as i rubbed it off. My pale face grew exhausted in waiting and thinking on how long they will keep the list unposted. I ran through the halls, my friend Arrene was holding my hand. She was like dragging me for in that moment, i was lost. I saw the hopeful faces of my batchmates, there were others who jumped and rejoiced because they made it and there were a few who did not saw their names in it. I did not want to see. I was in the different kind of place by then.. hoping for that instant to be just forwarded fast so that I won't be waiting for it, painstakingly.




After a moment of what seemed like eternity, i heard my friends say that my name was in the list. "What??" It took me a few seconds before i finally loaded it in my brain. "Yes, you are on the list... "





I cannot seem to believe that it all just happened in 2 minutes. Whatever the time is, I found myself jumping and shouting to the top of my voice. My friends were there to embrace me and whisper in my ear telling me how happy they were for me. I cannot help but be teary-eyed because they have done enough for me. Without them, i would surely be lost somewhere. And the most important of all, GOD. I thank him a million thanks.


I just can't believe that i'm finally here. Super thanks to them..

Waiting.. [LIFE SUPPORT]

Noticed time lately? Yes. I have done everything that i should do, i have gone through series of events that are more likely important and ofcourse, worth remembering. And a part two YES, I am waiting. Well time wasn't so slow and i wasn't so fast. The 4th quarter got me offguard because i was enjoying life at it's peak since the year started.

The most awaited month for me is March. Yes, it's finally here. I have been praying and hoping that in March 28, 2009 , I will be able to go up the stage and receive the proof of my hardwork and the summary of memories I have had in highschool, the diploma.


For some reasons, I was being ridiculous. Part of me was dying.. dying to know if i will be able to do it and a little 'bit scared of being left behind. And another part of me is saying that i will. These two parts are a heavy pain in the head. I did not know what to do and what to think in the first place. But i prayed hard. I knew in my heart that there is a way... God. Though my faith had been tested a zillion times, i wasn't reluctant to go to him and tell him how much i need him in this moment. I am certainly thankful because He was everything that i needed when i was empty-handed. He blessed me, gave me strength and enlightenment. I cannot simply put into words how much i am grateful to Him.

Second of all, I wouldn't be this strong if not for my Family and ofcourse, my friends. They were the living proof that God is here with me and that He is helping me in each and every way He can. Words are not enough for me to tell it and say that i am really THANKFUL.

They are my life support. This is why i'm here, standing strong and waiting.

MOMENT OF TRUTH -- TUESDAY, MARCH 17, 2009.

Even if i learned the hard way around, i'd go through it all again not because i know i will overcome it but because i know that my faith in these Life support of mine will never fade away. I love them so much.. more than anything in this world.

twilight lines. yes, i like it. so shut up. HAHA

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Yes, its 2009! Fast, huh? I was so busy rolling my good times with loved-ones that i forgot to post a blog last January 1. Im Sorry, HiHiHi :) HAPPY NEW YEAAAAR! My break turned out well.. Parties, Never-ending celebrations, Unlimited FOOD, and again.. Partiiiees! Ahahaha ü it was soo fuuunn! and i got used to sleeping late like about 4 am. This is not good because Hell, School's gonna start next week! UGH. I still want to spend time at home or anywhere.. and Chill.. Relax. Tsk. But the good thing is, i'll be seeing my friends and we'll be hanging out everyday again. Hectic schedules again, nooooooo. I'll be concentrating more than ever because of my Math. I'm in the dangerous level. :( I have to strive a lot more.

I hate this. But do i have a choice? I need to do everything to graduate :/

- Kristinaah

MERRY XMAS :)

FOUR OH FOUR DAYS TO GO

Sunday night, not just so bright, i slept the whole night for i was very tired. (hahaha, rythm baaby!)
well, anyhoo, this week was soo not a blast for me. I was dissapointed with my last school dance AGAIN. God, the playlist was disgusting.. old songs like Family Affair, Gasolina and etc. were played. it was plain awful. We went @ UC after and there, it felt like dancing, real one atleast! Almost Ateneans dominated and i sort of had fuun too.. kinda. ha ha.

Well, the truth is that i am really not feeling christmas at all. Its just like a normal vacation wherein you have to go rest and spend time with friends, family and loved-ones. It doesn't even fit with the term "vacation" because it'll only last for two weeks. too short for partying hard. Ha Ha Ha. But really, it's Jesus whose important with this occassion. Time to give love and help to others, (WTF AM I MURMURING ABOUT??!) Ha Ha Ha! Sucks for me! :p But heck, that was true.. what i just said.

By the way, i'm missing someone right now. He's got a lot of stupidity going on with his head pretty well.

My God. i soo love Caleb! (incase, i haven't told you yet) hahahaha.

This is all i can give.. for now. :D

halfway.

How many months have passed by the way? It was nevertheless worth it. I was building bridges in the middle of the year, i made a lot of unforgettable memories with the help of my friends. FOUR months. Four effin months and we're off to go. I cannot really imagine going to college. Im sure im going to miss highschool. We've passed the road halfway, we've watched minutes turn into hours and hours.. turning into months.. and yes, a year. How the hell are we going to survive the fourth quarter? So much for a senior like me. So much for a hopeful future. To graduate, by any means.

Next week, three days are for school stuff. The two days left are for parties and rock-a-bye baby, we start the christmas vacation! God. I do hope that we all are going to enjoy our remaining days in highschool.

(sooo oh soooo tired, giifts bought,)

btw.

STRESSFUL LIFE!

no more merry making baby.

The week's almost done. I had lots of fun though even if yesterday was a 'bit tedious. :) i just slept for about 3 hours or so and God, it makes me feel like the world's turning full circle. I am soo tired but everything seems to be worth it at this point of time.. except for the dissappointment that i felt for my last Campus Pop. It was sooo Boring. People were not soo game about dancing and the like. They were found staying at the canteen or somewhere else, and yeah it sucks. :) Pretty well, maybe they had their own different world.

Meanwhile, we sort of kinda like enjoyed a little at the dancefloor last night, shouting and bursting ourselves out as.. "SENIORS". There's nothing else that mattered except for the fact that this Fiesta 08 is gonna be our last one. We just have to make the most out of it. And next week, it's gonna be a different game. Im not that excited for my birthday && i dont know why. HAHAHAHA

oh yes.

whats fun this upcoming two weeks in a row? fiesta, campus pop, UC, college, party, birthday && ooh, a whole lot of surprises! the Physics exam yesterday almost led me to nervous breakdown dude but good thing, it didn't. it just halfed-almost-did. Okay, whatever.

yesterday was AUGUST 8 2008. hell yeah, i had lots of fuuun. but that morning, i thought everything was screwed up. First && foremost was because i had a veeeery pleasant sleep, which would basically mean that i fell asleep at 8 pm without even studying!! and that wasn't just that, when i arrived at school, i realized that i left my calculator, my ruler and my protractor. like heck, what happened to my 8-08-08?? the good thing was-- i was able to borrow a calculator from my friend Gabby and the ruler && protractor were not used in the exaaam :)) the Filipino test sort of drained me because it contains a lot of essay answering and opinionated questions. ü But not as much as Physics! MY OH MY. it was soo haaard, especially for me who didn't even made a scan in the notebook or book (which is like soooo width-taking!). i think i'd be flunking again. Goodluck to me.

it was another piggy-oink moment last night at Inna's house for it was IRINA'S BIRTHDAY. damn, she's soo cute! teehee :D t'was fun. we went home at about 10:30pm.

another day :: TODAY

i woke up laate. My mom and i had a bonding session again because ofcourse, it's shopping time! Thats the only time we have though. im soo tired now.. but atleast everythings worth it :)