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So oh happy.I woke up this morning feeling a little 'bit nervous. I tried to picture out myself seeing my name in the list and it felt good for me. The moment i thought about how it would all end up, hopeful in my case, I was having wishful thinking. I was letting all these things go for just this one leap of faith.. I tried to remember carefully how my dreams would come true in one second, how my agony and pain would stop and cease to haunt me before i go to sleep. And yes, those positive thoughts encircling in my head was giving a certain kind of trust within myself because I had always wanted to have it..


At exactly 1:30 in the afternoon, i was having this rapid beat in my heart.. my sweating hands were covered with my handkerchief as i rubbed it off. My pale face grew exhausted in waiting and thinking on how long they will keep the list unposted. I ran through the halls, my friend Arrene was holding my hand. She was like dragging me for in that moment, i was lost. I saw the hopeful faces of my batchmates, there were others who jumped and rejoiced because they made it and there were a few who did not saw their names in it. I did not want to see. I was in the different kind of place by then.. hoping for that instant to be just forwarded fast so that I won't be waiting for it, painstakingly.




After a moment of what seemed like eternity, i heard my friends say that my name was in the list. "What??" It took me a few seconds before i finally loaded it in my brain. "Yes, you are on the list... "





I cannot seem to believe that it all just happened in 2 minutes. Whatever the time is, I found myself jumping and shouting to the top of my voice. My friends were there to embrace me and whisper in my ear telling me how happy they were for me. I cannot help but be teary-eyed because they have done enough for me. Without them, i would surely be lost somewhere. And the most important of all, GOD. I thank him a million thanks.


I just can't believe that i'm finally here. Super thanks to them..

Waiting.. [LIFE SUPPORT]

Noticed time lately? Yes. I have done everything that i should do, i have gone through series of events that are more likely important and ofcourse, worth remembering. And a part two YES, I am waiting. Well time wasn't so slow and i wasn't so fast. The 4th quarter got me offguard because i was enjoying life at it's peak since the year started.

The most awaited month for me is March. Yes, it's finally here. I have been praying and hoping that in March 28, 2009 , I will be able to go up the stage and receive the proof of my hardwork and the summary of memories I have had in highschool, the diploma.


For some reasons, I was being ridiculous. Part of me was dying.. dying to know if i will be able to do it and a little 'bit scared of being left behind. And another part of me is saying that i will. These two parts are a heavy pain in the head. I did not know what to do and what to think in the first place. But i prayed hard. I knew in my heart that there is a way... God. Though my faith had been tested a zillion times, i wasn't reluctant to go to him and tell him how much i need him in this moment. I am certainly thankful because He was everything that i needed when i was empty-handed. He blessed me, gave me strength and enlightenment. I cannot simply put into words how much i am grateful to Him.

Second of all, I wouldn't be this strong if not for my Family and ofcourse, my friends. They were the living proof that God is here with me and that He is helping me in each and every way He can. Words are not enough for me to tell it and say that i am really THANKFUL.

They are my life support. This is why i'm here, standing strong and waiting.

MOMENT OF TRUTH -- TUESDAY, MARCH 17, 2009.

Even if i learned the hard way around, i'd go through it all again not because i know i will overcome it but because i know that my faith in these Life support of mine will never fade away. I love them so much.. more than anything in this world.