what a crappy thought !

well. i could have guessed.. t'was a momentum. i saw the girl. and for God's sake, i couldn't bare to stare at her even for a second. when i see her face, all i wanna think about is how they betrayed me in the most unexpected time. well, i've learned my lesson. LESSON LEARNED. & no matter how i try to repeat this thing up, i already knew what was supposed to happen. very well indeed, planned and told. i wish i knew it earlier so that i can give a slap on a face just right on time. but too bad, i had to be dumped first. haha ! it's a thing i'd die laughing to, not because its funny or shameful, but because i already dont give a damn anymore. it's priceless, you know?

and as soon as i put myself to sleep, there's nothing more dangerous than a vision of BITTER memories. it's all ive got. and i'd like to remind him, the next time he cheats on a girl or his girlfriend, i'd prefer he'd choose a more "gorgeous" one.. more "profound".. someone whom people can look up to.. and in that case, i'd be ripping my face off. but as far as i can see right now? i found a whore.. bitching around. not profound, not gorgeous, not someone whom people can look up to.

know more, know more :))

1. Do you call anyone 'babe'?

babe? yeah . :)


2. What was your first thing thought when you
looked in the mirror this morning?

"god. what happened to my hair?" LOL.

3. Do you believe there's always room
in your heart for your first love?

uhm. yeah, i just don't know if it's still burning ..

4. Have you ever worn the opposite
sex's underwear?

you have got to be kidding me. hell no. haha!

5. Where is the next place you will
travel to?

travel? i got no plans yet.. and oh, it was never planned. haha! i just go to places suprisingly.

6. Do you want to get married & have
kids one day?

yes dude, it want it to happen in the perfect time x)

7. Do you curse a lot?

uhh . honestly? yes. * evooooooooollll *

8. Have you ever kissed in a pool?


no. ill try it . nyahaha! kidding.

9. Do you like to have long hair or
short hair?

pretty well, i was born to shine with a long hair. so i got used to it already. && i loved it.

10. Do you like ice cream?

i like icecream more than you'll ever know., xp

11. What's your favorite color?

purple! black. green. red. white.

12. What does the last text in your inbox say?

its by Gino. the message is .. "Tin..Ü" . haha! lantaran.

14. Have you ever lied to protect
someone's feelings?

yes bro, its for the better. :)

15. Are you hiding something from your
parents?

ooh. yeah. we all hide things sometimes.

16. Do you get jealous of other people
easily?

only if they have something that i'd die to get ! like gadgets and stuff. haha!

17. What's the best thing about having
a boyfriend/girlfriend?

its having someone to care for you and understand you, no matter what. but hey! i got friends. its more of a boyfriend thing, so i dont need one.

18. How did you meet the last person
you kissed?

did i? haha!


21. Whats your favorite saying?

"what goes around comes back around."

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something good enough.

what happened today? oh, you dont want to know. ive become bedridden (not really, just for the foolish term itself) .. i could have been at the mall with my cousin and friends but too bad, my parents didn't allow me to. for these "valid" reasons::

• i need to rest.
• my teeth may/might swell.
• i might get sick.

well well. valid, huh? yeah maybe. but that's the reason why i got stucked here in the house. another *too bad* expression. whew. my teeth is still bleeding, but not soo like yesterday which was soo exagge. mmmmm. what can i say? i just got locked in at monster radio earlier.. t'was Jake Sanchez, also known as Deanno Baluyut, who played as the jock. summer jock. :) unfortunately, my requested piece was already played. remmber the love in this club part II thing? it was LSS. but now, another song popped out into my friggiin' brain. Forever by Chris Brown. it makes me wanna dance and get dirty! Ooops. did i just said dirty? i got it wrong. retake, retake. hahahaha.

and hey! there's this outbreak too. one of One Republic's hottest songs. i liked it. it's Say (all i need) by One Republic. and gosh, i fell inlove with it the first time i heard it.

so yeah. this is all. my tummy's already sounding hungry. so bye for now! xp.

lovelove.

before i put myself to sleep.

i have no plans yet, of sleeping. maybe i can't even close my eyes. i have a lot of things in my mind.. they sort of distracted me.. causing me to be fully awake at this moment. you know when a certain time comes that you really wanna let go and forget, then all of a sudden things around you seems to be soo much nostalgic.

heck, maybe i was really stupid. i regret everything i did. i wish i never came to that point. well. whats new? people are blinded by things. things that seem to be fascinating.. for awhile. then in a blink of an eye, everything's gone. a fool, a fool. what else can you do but relive your life :)

anyway, ayaw na pag nosebleed. maka adik man ang love in this club part II oy. haha! SHAAAAARRRE.
SIGE NA, PASI NA KO. matulog dyud ko oie. kulang na sleep ko everyday. hindi tama toh, di na ako tatangkad. tsktsk. DAVID COOK kasi ba, hindi ako pinapatulog. nyahahaha!

POKER. POKER. POKER.

start the blogg whatever. =PP

today, i went to my dearest dentist. && hell yes, nabunutan ako. it hurts! haha! but atleast i managed. its badly bleeding right now .. bloody hell. all i can taste is blood even if i eat. speaking of *FOOD? yeah, i dropped those hard biting ones and luckily, my dentist recommended ICECREAM! weeeeee. its good for my toothache too.. for it to be numb. :) soo. whats the fuzz? i ate lots !! nyahahaha. pasensya na ha. wala kasi ako sa tamang pag iisip ngayon, binabalewala ko nalang ang sakit. sakit sa ngipin. haha! tapos boring rin. IM BORED. i just got home and i have nothing to do but to rest. but my hyper body didn't take it. soo i kinda checked my fs and made this blog trash. teeheee. atleast Effort, dba? LOL. so.. hanggang dito nalang. im off for DREAMWORLD. zZzZzZzZ.

byebye. lots of love <333.

in my thoughts.

im now bored. yeah, bored and tired. i just did my daily routine, goofing around this city with my friend via. its fun being with a friend who understands you a lot. actually, every single detail about me is already filed up in her brain too. what can i say about us? well. here's the thing. we're experiencing the same thing. but we just have a different sitaution. might as well say that she had been totally swept off by someone who's now MISSING. and i dont know where the hell that person had gone. i really thought of a record to point out. "what they had was awesome..but they lost it."

as she keeps on telling me about the surreal misunderstanding, i began to think of how many people can seem to leave you in a matter of time.. the least you expect it to happen. i had been murmuring a lot of happy memories with her/ to her. but nothing seems to change. at this present time, i have nothing to hold on to.. except for my family && friends. they are those things that keep me pushing.. no matter how heavy the burden is that im having right now. but sometimes, i just can't fight back. dramatic, that's it.. ive grown tired for my drama and endearing as it may seem, ill be baring with it through thick && thin.

seeing him sends chills down my spine. but hey, im still not ready for it to come. i wish i'll never, ever see an unwanted face. its like bringing up those past events that i had and i tell you, its a nightmare. i never want to get carried away.. not again.

long forgotten.

its insane, and i dont want to think about it. how the hell was i suppose to know? it's this feeling.. creeping up inside me like a venom.. affecting every inch of me like a disease that will soon make me mentally retarded. yeah, weird huh? i feel like this every single day.. fighting the urge to think about what already happened in the past and trying to move along without those memories around me. they just make me feel sick. i never wanted to feel this way, not until he comes around. but what on earth am i thinking? i guess there are things that will keep you doing the same damn thing again, even though enough is truly enough. on the other hand, its hard. its really hard because i cant escape this feeling. love && hate collision. yes. that's the perfect term.

before, i had no idea about being fooled in the real world. but now, its like ive been traumatized and i already find it hard to trust a person easily. cheaters seem to get on my nerves lately. its like i have this feeling of anger for them. i learned the hard way around, for God's sake i have been holding on.

the beginning of the end.

well well well. as far as i can conclude, i've been through a lot of experiences lately. here's a common way of saying that life just doesn't end here. i've tasted all kinds of hell, from all the patches that ive been trying to burn and to pick up. this summer will remain incomparable. lately, i have been indulging myself with hanging out with different kinds of people, meeting new ones and adjusting with life as it brought me to a new level of change.

it's the first week of May, and soon classes will begin to start. i just felt the pressure for time right at this moment, on how fast it passes by. a lot of things come flashing to my mind, and it's everyday. every single word and action that i portrayed, i kept it all here wondering how it can be replaced by another time after time.

i feel disappointed, fooled, relieved, depressed, happy, down, angry, pitied and strong. amazing isn't it? i feel all these weird feelings at the same time. but the truth is, i dont know what i truly feel at this moment. maybe i was just pretending.. or maybe im confused. oftentimes i ask myself on how far i can still go, because sometimes telling yourself to be okay isn't just enough for you to be really okay. it's a hard damn life.. and love for me, is now just a game. a silly game. my opinions about life && love already changed.. and you wouldn't believe me if i told you that im just a human being with a lot of inhibitions, trying to be in a crowd full of fake smiles and pretensions. this is what i hated, being in that kind of stage in life wherein you don't know who you are anymore and who you will be after everything. but what can i do? there's no turning back.. i already did those things. whether i like it or not, i have to go and face the world.. the reality. it bites.